Friday, February 08, 2008

*click!*

This is really weird. Even with problems pouring in from all over I feel refreshed. Happy, even.

Right now I'm calling up public schools from all over the National Capital Region for our quiz bee two weeks from now. Our Astronomy Week preparations have been wracked with all kinds of problems and delays -the latest casualty was Erika's old laptop- hence all the late night meetings.

All the late nights plus everything else I have to do for my Journalism classes have helped turn my handsome face into a very tired puffy-eyed yet still handsome face. Hahaha. That's optimism for you.

Paparazzi
I was at CASAA yesterday for lunch when these two lovely ladies (hahaha I know them) come up to me and say "Kuya, can we take your picture?". They said it was for an exercise in Experimental Psychology; I get shivers thinking of what that really meant. So I smiled -tired, stressed, and very hungry- for the camera. *Click!* It's really nice to help out, but I still want to know what they will do with that picture! Hahaha.

Gate keeping
Speaking of CASAA, I've been sitting on this story for weeks now. I was buying lunch at one of the stalls there when one of the ates behind the counter looked at me and asked, "Sir, gaano na kayo katagal dito sa UP? Naalala pa kita a!" Shock and awe. I laughed and just gave my standard "pangalawang course ko na po e" line. *Click!* Am I really that old?

Institution
It's not only at CASAA where that happens. I just get waved through whenever I enter Palma Hall. Before I thought that it was only because the security guards had relaxed the "No ID, no entry" policy. But yesterday, I got waved through again but the people behind me -all of them- were checked for ID. Yikes. Please tell me I'm just being paranoid. At the Economics library I no longer have to give out my name when I get my ID; the person at the ID desk just looks at me and hands me the ID. It's probably the picture. Yes, the picture. Hahaha. *Click!* Paranoid.

Ambition
I'm old. Hahaha. I want to work already! Money, money MONEY! However, listening again to our interview with Alex Tinsay made me think about what I REALLY want to do with my life. *Click!* I want to be there when history is made. Period. Of course I still want to make history, but somehow I think that covering events and understanding the media would help me reach my ultimate goal.

Power
Control the media, control the mind. Hahaha. Be afraid. But that's a long way away. I still have to graduate first! I'm still calling schools. It's like some sort of weird drug -you feel "high" when people jump at the sound of your voice. HAHAHA. That is how Christa talked me into helping out the EdRes Cluster with the schools. It feels good when you say "Good morning, I'm from the UP Astronomical Society..." and the voice on the other line suddenly perks up. *Click!* It's addictive, I tell you. And I am in danger of being late again for my 1 PM class because of all the things I'm doing right now.

Clarity
I have a lot of things to do; reports for the most part and all the preparations for Astro Week. Oh, and I have to cover something between today and March 1 in preparation for our BJ 101 news production. Hahaha. More stress. But, as I said before, I actually feel refreshed. Happy. In control. *Click!* My mind is so clear. It's as if I'm finally "in the zone". A big part of that would probably be because I'm really enjoying my course. It may be hard at times, but I enjoy what I am doing, and that's what's important. An equally big part would be because of AstroSoc. The work there may be even harder -midnight meetings, anyone?- but the feeling of belongingness, of being part of something great drives me even harder to perform and serves as the fuel which keeps me up until the wee hours of the morning.

Night life
As I said to a friend just the other day, my day life is nothing compared to my night life. Tambay at AstroSoc -with all the crazy people there- really brightens up my day. Everyday. Thanks for the eye bags guys. Hahaha! But that is why I feel so happy, so ALIVE. I don't even mind the stress anymore.

*Click!*
Thoughts just flow from my mind; no barriers, no traffic, NO FEAR. They just flow out, like right now. I think, I write. Easy. Last night I won two straight games of cards; it was as if the cards just played themselves. I was relaxed and in control. The force is with me. Hahaha.

And I love it.

***
Thought for the day:
If a man will begin with certainties, he shall end in doubts; but if he will be content to begin with doubts he shall end in certainties.
- Sir Francis Bacon

No comments: